And another...

Luna came over to get ready and drink wine. We went to Dublin Castle to see The Dogbones. It all gets a little cloudy after that. Maria, David and Luna went home at some points and I had more wine that I didn't really need. Then I was elsewhere, untill we walked through the streets staring at the sky. You carried my shoes, my feet are not happy with me. There are others who are less happy with me, I think, vaguely. I guess I wish he could have stayed. I need to stop from turning events to fairytales. You see this is another, and this is not quite normal. I walked to Lunas as I couldn't even imagine sleeping but instead had other thoughts - even though you said goodnight, but I did sleep later - and I will sleep again now. Wish I could stay asleep for a couple of weeks or so. I wish so many things.

She whispers and shouts...

... But her words are lost. Not in the breeze or on backs of white coated waves, but on deaf ears. She thinks in beautiful sentences but they come out plain, she says it how it is then, and then becomes stupidly stupid. Maybe the one who lost her words did infact just throw them away; I imagine them now strewn on the pavement outside the window. He thinks she doesn't mean it. Or means it too much; both scary I guess, for a boy. But she has just never felt this way before, well maybe once - but she has forgotten what that felt like and has taken too much of her time up with apparent self destruction that she is afraid to have the one thing that makes sense at the moment go away (she has become melodramatic, which proves what she first presumed). She knows that if words were to come back this way, neither in the breeze or on backs of white coated waves, they wouldn't be spelled the same. When the writer falls, she hurts her knees.

Shoes and Eyes

Back again. I went to go see Joanna Newsom tonight at The Festival Hall. I went alone but found Kolli and Caitlin and they were sitting in the same row as me which was nice. I really wanted ice-cream, but there wasn't any, then I wanted crisps but the que was too long. Before she started I wished I had put different shoes on; I nearly fell down the stairs twice (I'm not sure that the Tequila has left my system completely from my blind drunk Sunday night) so maybe it wasn't the shoes at all - just me. Well she was beautiful and her songs were pretty and all those things. Now I'm here dreaming of other things and nothing much at all. I wish my head would stop being fuzzy and that I could fall to sleep and wake up at regular hours. I wish I could get round to doing all the things I want to do, instead of sitting and thinking about nothing untill it gets dark and I have to sleep again. Tomorrow I will get up at a regular hour and go and write in Costa Coffee - even if I don't want to really and I actually do want to stare at my wall all day... I will get up and go and sit in the coffee shop, I will write something lovely and be happy that I decided to do this. I think I have lost my mind, but it's ok, I might find it in my sleep. I have make up in my eyes ...

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds #4

FLUTTERBYDAISY FAIRYTALE FINDS #4

Now in my Ebay shop ...

(Starting @ £5)

... Which you can find Via my website:

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Flutterbydaisy 'Fairytale Finds' Shop Additions #2 & #3

Find these actions in my 'Flutterbyaisy Finds' ebay shop

Via : http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

xxx

P.S today there are only 5 FD Fashion Show dresses left in my Fluterbydaisy Handmade Etsy shop... find this link on my website too...

<3

FINALLY!! Flutterbydaisy Fashion show 2010 dresses are now in my shop!

Yes, I'm still awake, but had to tell you that I have put the dresses from my Fashion Show in my online shop :) I'm still feeling a little under the weather so I roped my stunt double Luna to come and pretend to be me in the photos... I think we pulled it off ;) http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com/

** I will be adding one new special Flutter Frock each week **

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds to come ......

* Goodnight *

Unbearable

On the train to Hull... I feel better, better leaving London, but not about going to Hull, just going. I write in my notebook 'Train, faster, untill it explodes, just to know what it feels like, but I don't want to feel the pain: How selfish' I'm reading it back now and I have no idea what I meant really. But anyway, I started (and couldn't put down) 'The Unbearable Lightness of Being' by Milan Kundera. It's been on my shelf now for months but I had other books to read first. I'm happy I chose this one to bring here with me. It has in fact managed to steal the position from Murakami, 'Kafka on the Shore' of best book of all time (to be continued...) within the first 127 pages. I am more than a little impressed. I usually watch trees and think about crazy things that would never happen and make fantasies about people I shouldn't when I'm on trains. I'll catch up on that when I get back as I'm sure I'll finish this book while I'm here. As soon as I got here (out of There) I became inspired again. I wanted to be near a sewing machine and make a dress in peacock colours then write more and more chapters of my book after re-writing the ones I already have and keep writing till I've finished. I know though that untill I get a place of my own (wherever that may be) I'm not going to feel like this again any time soon, and this is not a reflection on the people I live with as they are lovely, but more about me and my daft and stupid head. I don't know where I'm supposed to be at the moment and I'm not sure if the book is helping or not. I do know, though, that being on trains is fun. I wish I could just be on a train, an empty one like this one but that just goes all over the countryside all the time and never stops (and doesn't explode either as my subconcious wanted it to at the begining of my journey)
I'm happy to see my Mum and everyone. My Nana told me new stories, while Grandad clicked his teeth... we talked about the universe and drank coffee. Then there was a pile of stuff from my past for me to sort... I found my Mums old make up that I used to play with when I was little. The bag opened and powder fell across the floor; the smell of my childhood. I wish the train would also go back in time.

Near the woods

Today I went to visit Nuala and her lovely little moggy ... I had to hide my ribbons, but she liked me really untill the very end, we think she was playing anyway. We moved the pretty screen and took some photos semi-inspired by Opelia. We were going to walk through the woods after but the mud was everywhere, we did walk past Spike Milligans house though. I love it over there - the scenery is yum. I didn't feel like I was in London, which was nice. London is suffocating recently. Our day was a dream... made sureal by the lushness of Nualas awesome home baked chocolate cake... I could eat it for breakfast everyday. When I got home a fever happened and I got lost. Bad things were happening but I put them all there myself. George made me Lemon and Ginger tea which made me feel better then I watched One Hour Photo which made me feel less crazy. I dreamed that night of secrets that I can't tell you. Maybe one of you was there...

Am back ...

... from hibernation :) (new dresses will be in both my shops in the nest week)
Sooooo .... I've had so many conversations recently about this whole bisexual business... it's interesting, as I always thought I was a lesbian and now I feel as though I'm 'coming out' again. Most Lesbians I've met are not ok with this and I'm intruiged to find out why - It simply blows my mind! an-y-waaaaaay..........
I'm also wondering why it is that other people like to stick to their own stereotypes? it's odd, and makes me wonder if I do it too ... I hope not, am I a part of that group? I fall for people sometimes too hard and want to run away with them which in turn makes them want to run away from me, and then other times I switch off when some of them make me feel lost, then write about it after drinking too much wine - am I just acting out the stereotype of 'the writer'?? 'the creative individual'?? 'the fool for love'?? 'the fool'?????
Writers and Musicians shouldn't get on, so why do I end up falling for them all the time? sometimes by accident - I could meet them and not even know that they are one of them for weeks and then all of a sudden they pull out a guitar or harmonica or banjo or a cello from their back pocket ...
I also don't like it when people don't text me back - but that's another story. I'm going to write a chapter of my book now.... that will make me feel better.

Somewhere across the world is someone writing: 'Sailors and Ballerinas shouldn't get on... but I like the sea too much.'
Here is my picture dedicated to The Sea.

Sniff

So today was supposed to be my 'day of doing' but I seem to have brought back Le French Flu from Paris. So today has turned into my 'day of not doing much apart from sniffing, coughing and watching Planet Earth' ... I'm goi.ng to write some and then try to sleep it off. I will try to get my new Flutterbydaisy Finds and the Dresses from my Fashion Show online in a couple of days- when the sniffling and spluttering has had enough of me.... uf.

Marionette Obsessive in the Making...

I'm becoming obsessed with Vintage puppets and marionettes... I found a book in Oxfam, Camden, it's about Papier Mache and I'm well away: more hobbies, more new Flutterbydaisy things to sell in my little handmade shop. I'm going to start making them when I get back from Paris on Monday, give them pretty names, dresses and maybe houses to live in ... I will be seeking out more Fairytale Finds when I'm away too - I have a bag of them already at home waiting for their photo op and to be put online ... I'll do that when I get back too. Tuesday will be 'the day of doing' in my world :) all my shops will be full and what not, then I can start writing my book. More time: I have deleted my facebook, and am 'away' on MySpace so I have more time to be here and on my website ... which is the way it should be really. I like being here. I love that Spring is here too - the TV makes me laugh: 'Lambing Live', don't miss it folks... :)

Sooooo Paris in the morning ... can't wait! I'm taking my video camera and will be making a 'Rules of Attraction' inspired video diary... but with walking instead of sex, museums instead of prostitutes and hot chocolate instead of drugs. YEAH!
I found this cute marionette online here: http://www.jpgmag.com/photos/652999 ...
I'm going to go get in the Paris mood now with cute French film: 'Love me if you Dare' au revoir!

Covent Garden, Planet Earth

If I want to get up earlier I need to sleep earlier, so why am I here now? tomorrow I'm going to go on a mini search for Flutterbydaisy Finds ... as my other only have one day left in the auction. I should really put my Fashion show pieces in my etsy shop too - maybe I will also do that tomorrow, but right now I'm awake and writing and watching Planet Earth which makes me laugh and cry out loud all at the same time. I would love to meet David Attenborough. I bought it today from Fopp me and Stephanie went there for some much needed retail therapy and after my disapointing search for it at The Natural History Museum (because me and Maria became far too engrosed in the carrot cake the day before this) We also visited the two little mystery shops that have crystals and what not inside; Stephanie looks at home in these shops I think she should have one of her own. We ask for Kunzite but there isn't any ... there never is any anywhere, and it is the one I really would love to add to my collection (I eyed it for a good while in my favourite room at the museum, before we went to stare at the big chunk of tree) So then we have a rest in Cafe Boheme with wine and look at stuff and talk about everything. Theer's so much to look forward to; today I am feeling better. Later I couldn't resist the offer to go to see Alice in Wonderland with Maria ... it was awesome (Anne Hathaway is yum and we think should have married Alice at the end - that's the only thing we would change) ;) The White Queen really reminds me of someone. Then home and a happy Disney style ending for me too: I found a pretty chunk of Kunzite on Ebay. The End.

Awake and lit up, but gone

And she forgets it all, or rather can't think of any of it; it's all blank as she goes away..... again. She forgets her name and the faces of all those people, any people: him and her. The lights make her feel better as she understands how now those lights are the only things that are there, here, the only thing she can feel. If she wanted to - she could switch them off.

***

Today, I bought some cheese from Maria because all I wanted to do when I woke up was eat a cheese sandwich (more so than all the other times in the day when I want a cheese sandwich) Looking at each other was like looking into a mirror; we are both so exhausted, her with lack of sleep and me with I'm not sure what because right now it's hard for me to think... and if I knew you wouldn't need to know about it. Later because the film was sold out me and Tom went to The Diner and had yum burgers, with him I felt like me again. Then I went to The Big Red to have a drink with Julia and Shelley. I love them all a lot, and don't know what I'd do right now without any of them .... *

And so I find myself sitting here again at, whatever time it is... with strange TV on in the background. I'm going to write for a while and then I have to sleep : tomorrow I have a date with some dinosaurs.

Finished ... and breathe...

Sooooo.... I have finished all the sewing for the show tomorrow - or later on, as again I find myself up and awake at 4:00am. I really looking forward to the show and hope to see you all there! I'm going to be in the corner with a large glass of wine ... maybe in an easy chair, I wish - I will probably actually be running around trying to fix something that may or may not go wrong, but whatever happens I'll be dancing at some point ... and drinking, and eating the cheese sandwiches that Maria has just made for the Flutterbydaisy staff lol :)

So when I checked my email to see how many tickes have been sold I had been sent this illustration and I

adore it :) it's by Clare Heart...

Now, I have to sleep as I have to wake up in a couple of hours to go buy lots of black fabric to make a curtain at the venue, then I have a man with a catwalk waiting for me at the Dome ... then we have to make everything pretty. Ok, so I'm going to be the one at the back in the corner having a little nap.... *goodnight*

Flutterbydaisy 'Fairytale Finds' Shop Additions #1

On auction now ... in my Fairytale Finds' shop you can find on my website:

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

It Speaks T Shirts are now on sale...

* It Speaks T Shirts *

Forest Fairy Artwork by Luna Viola

Now available to buy online :) you can find them in my 'Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds' Shop via my website... www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Flutterbydaisy 'Handmade Shop' Additions #1

Ladybird, Magpie, Sparrow

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

should be sleeping

Haha I've just realised that the ballerina doll I posted below is sitting like me in the pic of at the top of this blog... aaaannyyyywaaaayyy ... was on ebay again - and not only managed to find my dream shoes but also this little cameo which reminds me of books my Nana used to read to me. I should buy it to wear at my show, which is getting closer and now the nerves are kicking in- mainly about drawing the raffle (as I get the best talk related stage fright in the world) So.... on my TV now is some woman trying to make me make a face cream from avocado - eh... and shes making juuice- but it's soooo expensive to make this green juice stuff, firstly they make you get organic stuff and then there's the whole cleaning the juicer business afterwards AND she's wearing a green top --- sorry, tangent. Ok I'm tired, and again with the rice crispies obsession - I'm going to go raid my cupboard (I know where they are, it's just more exciting to raid kitchen cupboards for midnight/4am feast... come to my fashion show - I'll bring rice crispies and we can get drunk on them.

Bring on the fairy dolls and figure skating...

Was browsing through ebay when I should have been sewing and came across a far too pretty fairy ballerina doll, so pretty I kind of wanted to marry her. I wish I could afford one, but apparently not :'(

(cdlitestudio.com) I was looking for dolls because I'm trying to collect weird things to put in my future living/sewing room... It should have old red lamps, green velvet curtains, (more) old bashed up chairs, cracked dolls and paintings of folk with that look on their face. Creepville room of Yum and lush. I came by another listing that said something like 'used doll with nice hands' which I thought was a bit odd, well more than odd really; it creeped me out more than the imaginary room of my future. In other news my TV is all working again... I'm over the TV-non-watching and I'm back on the flicker box band wagon, maily because I really want to watch the figure skating, but when ever I've put it on upto now it's been somekind of 'pushing thing across ice game' that I am not very fond of at all. I'm off to read the new Lula magazine now and then be a good girly and make a dress. If anyone finds and creepy bits and bobs auction anywhere send me the link :)

It's my birthday and I'll smile if I want to...

Had the best day today... it started with a minature bottle of champagne and finished with Sailor Jerry and coke over pool past a bunch of flowers outside my door and via some awesome Duck rolls. I got pretty gifts with fairies and japanese dresses on, lovely handmade things and a Mrs Rabbit from my two flower girls. We left Satsuma and I was happy I decided against those shoes... then cafe Boheme was smaller than I remember... and onto 12Bar where there was pretty music and a game of pool that I strangely won (which could only happen with birthday luck I assure you) Home came next with toast and cheese and I fell asleep watching ANTM yeah! ... then I had the blandest dream about a supermarket full of cereal and I spent hours looking for thr Rice Crispies...

Blue, with flowers on...

The flowers are back!! thank you who ever answered my wish *
... but why am I still awake again??

Here I am again...

... at 5:00 in the morning, or whatever time it is now. I thought for a minute a few hours ago that my computer and technology in general was going to give me a break - I had finished making my new website in my computer and I wanted to publish it... aparently my computer didn't really like that idea, so I have been bribing her with zeros ever since and she published the new website for me - but missed out the background in the archive!! - I have spent at least 2 hours trying to fix it, but nothing. She has gone to sleep by the way during all of this and has just left me to it. The relationship beween me and my old little laptop is getting stranger by the minute. Please tell me it looks ok? I will give you berries. If not however I will be forced to spend eternity trying to figure it out - I just want to put flowers in it... and they are there in my computer, but not online. Ouch, my head hurts and I'm ranting to you .... ok other news ... Me and Luna did another rushed photoshoot on the table in my kitchen: A sneak preview for two of the smaller dresses that will be walked at my show, and later sold to someone lovely who will take care of them and feed them biscuits. I keep seeing things moving out of the corner of my eye: it's either animals, or I'm finally insane... I think I hope it's the latter (?) anyway ... I'm going to go to bed, I'm unbelievably tired and have to sew a thousand dresses tomorrow. Let me know what you think of the site, but take into account all of the above and don't be too honest, I need white lies and hugs right now ;) oooo - and there will be more things in my shop and some things in the 'Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds' section in two weeks or so ... all my finds are building up in the corner like a pretty pirate cave, I just need to take some pretty pics etc...
Love and bunnies... xx

Nobody ever stays...

Rules I've learned so far this year...

Don't ever: trust those pretty girls who say they want to kiss you, stay up so late you go insane, force yourself, read badly written books, drink de-caf or eat crisps.
Always: watch TV shows you used to watch when you were small, wear something pretty for bed even if you are sleeping alone, wake up before 1:00.
Do: eat more cheese than possible.
Finally: It is possible to find lovely people when you least expect it.

Today we made a video...

A new Friend

Natanya Waybourne went to the shops to buy... some wool, Natanya Waybourne went to the shops to buy some wool and this tiny little bunny she found. She was just looking up at me from a shelf near the wool. She was surrounded by other pets and barn yard animals but she didn't have any friends I could tell. But now she is sitting on my bookshelf with all the other bunnies I've collected. They are all happy now; they sing to me when I sew.

By the way... I keep hearing gremlins underneath my floorboards. At least I think they are gremlins, they don't sound like mice - unless they are the ones that followed me from the horrible house and they are in fact mice, but dressed as gremlins; mice on the run, or on the prowl... evil mice. by the way ladies and gents and petals it's 2am again (the gremlin-mice just got louder) and I'm tired. But In other news I made two pretty frocks today, one is covered all the way up in frills and lace yum.

From now till March I will be maily sewing...

... and sewing , and sewing, and sewing ..... la la lalalala lala la! a dress a day: sore fingers, waking up early and not enough coffee. Salads and water and (never enough cheese) DVDs I don;t watch, but they are on in the background. No TV, but I long for some project catwalkrunway right about now - is there another series on yet?? I'm behind with the listings :(
Waking up early (early for me, not other folk) is driving me a little crazy, I have made myself a bizarre schedule that I keep not sticking to all the time, but it is stuck on my wall. I'm going to let myself stay up till 3am though, can I live on 6 hours sleep? I'm sure I can. I lit all the candles in my room earlier, I was trying to make it seem like day so I'd plough on as though I'd just got up, but it didn't work and just made me a little dreamy... it's 2am now, I should go ... it's too late to sew (I also gave myself a sewing curfew); my machine cries when I use her too and the neighbours don't like the sound, so I shall make another leg warmer to match the one I made last night, otherwise one of the models will look wonky. Or I could make a storyboard: I'm thinking of making a little vidoe advert for the show etc :) or maybe I will try to sleep...

Fashion Show Ahoy

Sooooooo, after lot's of fighting with myself and then my computer and then myself again... after hibernating and watching L Word Re-runs and disappearing and falling off the world... after getting lost in my head and fighting my way back out of the candyfloss that's in there with a wet spoon I finally managed to sort 80% of all of this out and now the tickets for my Flutterbydaisy Fashion Show are on sale!! yey!! they are e-tickets and you can get them here: http://www.etickets.to/buy/?e=4058 they are £8 in advance (and I think the people charge you 69p or something) and the price will get higher if you buy on the door (I don't make the rules...eek) ... so here's a bit of the lowdown: on Thursday 4th March @ 7pm prompt (!!) untill 2am (when aftershow party ends and we all fall down) @ The Dome (above The Boston Arms) Tufnell Park, London, N19.... Nuala Merne, Esther Dee, David Ryder Prangley, Maleficent and The Dogbones will be playing live sets some before and some after the catwalk show (for which I have already found 6 fairy models and am still looking for 4 or so more so get in touch wherever you are hiding, the rocks in the garden I'm guessing) at the door I will give you a free raffle ticket to win a Flutterbydaisy dress from the show on the night (winner will be anounced straight after the catwalk show) then in the corner will be one of my little fairy assistants selling all the items from the catwalk and other goodies like limited edition prints, cds, poster, tshirts etc ....... ALSO Hannah Daisy will be fluttering around taking photos of all the guests for the website archive and floating along of his own accord will be Donato the documentary man. Which means you should all look as pretty as bunnies and smile a lot. I think I just about covered everything, in a mumbled kind of way ... but anyway, yes I can't wait! see you there lovelies!!! <3

Speed photoshoot: Faster!!

Me and Luna had an amazing photoshoot sesh today, she is the Moon, as her name says she should be ... and then we did a massive set change in a tiny space in my room and in a tiny time frame, like 60minute makeover. Then we did the pics for the flyer for the fashion show, I needed something on my head, we tried to find a floppy hat but were running out of time so the plant came to the rescue.

After all of the clicking and pasting of make up I ran off to meet David for his birthday... we went to see the Pop life exhibition, were there was a room of porn and arty folk were looking at it far too eep as though it was art (it was literally seperate pages of a porn mag from the 70s in a frame... and we all know 70s porn was the worst)

Then off to the pub that I can't remember the name of, the one where the pretty bar maid works... ah - the lock tavern, to meet Saheena ... then to the ice cream place where we all sat like teenagers to eat big piles of ice cream. YUM. :)

The I went home to fight with my computer ... we have a complex relationship.

I said I'd Write about you but I can't

But I did love the bleakness where poetry should be written, the sound of Joanna Newsome and the view from outside, the red sky, and the colour of mustard.
***

Texting her around the corner...

It's like a game, and you have a pretty smile that I wanted to kiss - but we will wait, she said. Then the men wouldn't give us a lift and I walked infront of their cab up the street to the front door. Before the pub, before the pretty girl was fun too... Jessica read my tarot which was good, I mean she said good things so I'll keep wishing and maybe all of them will come true. Then we talked about being housemates in an obnoxious loft or somewhere grand, where we could write and be arty. Then we went to the pub, the local... then we're at the beginning of the story again.

Once Upon A Forest Floor

We had far too much fun playing in the garden, me and all my forest creatures. It was cold and there was snow but we didn't care too much ... you can't see were shivering in the pics. We had lovely interviews too with our little documentary man Donato, who will continue the interviewing and documenting at the Fashion Show. I'm trying now to upload the images and different files and whatnot into this online book-manual-type-printing-thing, but It's been made clear to me that my computer and all websites are tired of me for now as they fail (choose) not to work. I should leave them alone for a while....

But when It's made I'm sure it will be lovely, and I'll let you know when it's out :) my little ladybird Matilda was obviously the highlight being cute and a natural poser <3

To the forest: Untill we meet again!

Yum, my good left eye and a very well behaved mouse

This is Stephanie and she eats flowers for breakfast:

Before the photoshoot we went to visit the little antique shop up the street. Sometimes I wish I could live inside : but not when there are that many people in there. I Bought an old map of Yorkshire (in a sentimental kind of way) which is now hanging on my wall. Stephanie bought lots of old photos of people we don't know but who all look like they were lovely, for the shoot. She wanted to look all 1940s and I think we made that happen in my little dusty time machine. On our way out of the antique place, which had a sign outside that said 'all books £1 - but there were no books) I saw out of the corner of my left eye (the eye I use to secretly search for pretty things) I saw an old (I keep saying 'old' ... but, of course) parasol. It is black and has three layers of silk and a pretty handle and is filled with lovely. I had to but it. Instead of bread milk and cheese, which i thought was a pretty good bargain. My little parasol is sitting up-right on my shelf now in the top corner of my room like a little planet next to my victorian coat. Nick nacks are the best. Later that night I was trying to finish a dress for Simona when my needle ran over a bead and snapped :( I have to get up early tomorrow and buy some more uf. But in lighter news : The Dome is booked on 4th March for my Fashion Show (...and late 25th birthday celebration + 5 bands). Tickets will be available in January online. I'm only telling you for now - I'll tell the rest of the world next year. It's all rather exciting though! ... there will be someone there making a documentary and special guests!!

eek! said the mouse whom I've hidden under my bed.

Going to run now: I have to make 8 dresses in as many days for my 'Once Upon A Forest Floor' photoshoot... good job I need more needles anyway, these will be overworked and will need rest.

Hide and Seek with the Cat

3:20 in the morning ... my laptop is burning. But I did get to play games with Archie the Cat today. He was my photographer and we played on the stairs. He won all the games. He is good at games because he is still a kitten, kind of. I think I'm still a kitten too though, that's why we understand each other. I held a pink ribbon for him to GET and he liked that ... but he couldn't return the favour, because he has no fingers and can only do one of two things: push or GET. There were a couple of hours when we were the only kittens in the house... but I wasn't doing that annoying cognative thing I usually do when I'm in on my (semi)own, that 'if this was a horror film I would get murdered right about now (a lesson learned too late: don't under any circumstances, no matter how 'cool' it is, force yourself to watch cheesey horror films under the age of 8) because Archies fluff made me fell better. He did not make Marias chair feel better though - he likes velvet apparently, pink ribbons and velvet,.. so I moved the chair into the sanctuary that is my room. If you stepped inside my room about now I wouldn't blame you for thinking I had some kind of fantastic chair fettish; the room is quite small and 90% of it is either a bed or a chair (of which there are 4, for the time being) they are all very nice chairs and keep my own two chairs company, so if their owners don't take them back home sometime soon I am going to start some sort of court battle where I will obviously get sole custody of all the chairs.

In The Dolls House

A little Esther Dee Doll came to visit today. There were dresses and frills, leaves, flowers, a hedghog in the corner - spying, photos galore and trees. We turned my bedroom into a forest ... it still smells as though I'm outside in here ... Of course Luna was here as my fairy assistant and make-up girl. It was all lots of fun and we should do it everyday.
I'll post more pics of the whole shoot on my new fangled webpage soon.
Ok now I'm off to put some kind of a face on so I can go and try to book a venue for my March fashion show (which is far too exciting to tell you all about now, but I will in the new year I promise)
I'm going to start a mailing list if you wanted to be on it (for now before I get one of those fancy ones) send me an email at natanyalouisewaybourne@hotmail.co.uk and there will be news soon ***
Shhh.... listen to the wind. It got caught in the trees we brought into my room. She says she is warmer in here but because of this has forgot all about how to be the wind. Now she just sits in my chair and talks to me about buttercup dos and donts.
***
Cannot stop listening to: Lenka :) ... or the song from True Blood. lol.

Night at The Movieum

Just got home from The Movieum (which I didn't even know existed until today) we went to see the reading of 'The Hand Factory' by Greg Loftin with Patricia Quinn. It was funny... and cold. After the performance we were taken on a special mini tour behind the scenes to see lots of props and costumes from films. Comedy mobile phone lighting was interesting and for a brief moment I felt like a thief. In the corner I found Peter Rabbit - so sad I didn't have my camera with me ... but he was 'life' size and cute, we talked about carrots.

Dancing with Fireflies

A very busy day indeed ... for a start, I need a new alarm as I have become immune to the beep mine makes. Julia came round and we cut up lots of fabric so I can make some fairy skirts for the Mediaeval Baebes, beating my speed sewing record: one skirt in one hour and a half! Later I went to pick up Luna and some tree branches for Esthers photoshoot on Friday. Then what better to do than buy a bottle of wine, set up a set, put faces on and play with my camera ... In a down the rabbit hole kind of a way. With wine in my head I decided that me and Luna should go dance around in the dark with the fireflies and make a video with snap shots - too much fun. Luna is now a part of It Speaks and new pretty stuff is soon to come ...

Wonderful day, said Alice

I managed to escape a hangover by eating eggs and sausages when I got in at 3ish, after a trip to Club Hell to see The Dogbones and other bands ... it was fun because everyone was out, it was not fun because it was too crowded... it was fun because we laughed a lot through a Jack D haze, it wasn't fun because the front door seemed to be constantly open. There was also a magic door where people went in looking normal and walked out looking like death. But yes: sausages, eggs and coffee did the trick so I woke up with a happy head and made my way to Oxfam late, I'm always late (will borrow watch from the rabbit) another coffee and I'm good to go. Half way through the day a lovely named Claire came in and bought Alice in Wonderland. I didn't realise we had it so I told her and then we chatted about our love of the story and old books in general... she left and then came back ten minutes later and gave me the book! She said she thought I should have it. It completely made my day and more! I'm still smiling. She was the loveliest lovely I've met and I wish we had have swapped numbers or emails - I would have taken her for a tea party, or something else pretty along those lines... with cup cakes ***
After a little while longer Tom cam into see me which made me even more happy. I later got together a collection of old books for the photoshoot for my websites new front page whilst listening to 'The Hitchhickers Guide to The Galaxy' on tape. I love Marvin: "I've worked out if I put my left arm in my right ear I can electrocute myself"
Dinner was at Maria and Tiinas ... yum, but with some bad films... yuk (I think me and Maria laughed more than ever). All in All an Wonderful day.

Fabric shop - Market - South Kensington

Should wake up earlier

... But it is too difficult when I open my eys all wrapped up in my feathery duvet, it's yum and I think some mornings that I should marry it. But I wont; churches frown upon that kind of thing. So now it's 3:50 am or so I can get round to coming to talk to you about my lovely day ... I have been mostly sewing and have finished a pretty Flutterbydaisy dress for Miss Allison Harvard - I'm excited to see what she thinks about it, I shall send it tomorrow morning (if I indeed manage to wake up in the morning: I have set an early alarm, which I will try not to ignore! I far to busy now to ignore it because of all those lazy November blues days....) I'm very much looking forward to seeing the photos Allison is going to send me of her in her new frock. Maybe this will all coincide will the launch of my new and improved website (same address) that I hope to launch on or before the 21st December. But in order to do this I have set myself a jam packed everyday untill then... which means after, when it is all done, I may sleep all the way through Xmas in Hull. Last night before I went to sleep at some god awful hour in the morning I managed to scrawl down a Flutterbydaisy biography in the form of a short fairy tale, it's called 'Once Upon A Forest Floor' and I will be making dresses for it over the next few days (and weeks) and have planned a shoot for the images to go along with the fairy tale on the 17th December. I have also found some vintage keys that I will make into bookmarks for the first few... did I already tell you half of this yesterday?? maybe I did, but I'm excited about it (and it is also now 4am and my mind is falling asleep without me) So today was mainly a Flutterbydaisy day ... that's why so much shop talk, but enough with all that - let's go to bed and dream about frogs or something....

lathargic

Maybe it's the November blues, do November blues exist? ... anyway, if they did, that's what I have. But today I have decided that that will change. I have a belly full of cheese on toast and a sewing machine that is staring at me with longing from across my room. I have four dresses to make and four days to do it in! Flutterbydaisy jet-pack at the ready and I'm off!
... in a minute ...
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In other news: Since starting at Oxfam bookshop I have become more addicted to books than ever before - they all look at me in the basement and want me to take them home; friends for my sewing machine. My pretty sock, Vintage dress and coffee addictions have of course not been neglected ... so many addictions, and always room for more : art? taxidermy? taxidermy art? ahh the possiblilities ... maybe nick nacks?? Goerge my housebuddy salvaged a velvet parasol for me the other day, it's massive and beautiful. Then the day after he gave me a japanese dish ... nick nacks, definitely nick nacks :)

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Thoughts for the future .......... Birthday Flutterbydaisy fashion show and you are all invited ...... but shhhhh it's a secret.

I like this hat

... it is green, feathery and magnificent... it belongs to my friend Jessica. If anyone finds another anywhere send me a note on a pigeons foot of how I can go about owning it. Well today we were arty; I was sitting for her ... she was etching me. A curious process which she promised to tell me all about next time. I want to do one of my own, apparently i want to do a bit of everything along these lines so that urge didn't surprise me at all really. I guess I'm going to go online and buy copper plates next... I'll put them in my big box of crafts where I keep my clay, cotton, wool, paint, pens, fibres, needles and other bits of stuff. I have balsa wood in there too, and a glue gun: Don't ask me why.
Well I'm home now and shall sit down with another cup of coffee and start this little short story project I've decided to do in-between everything else: I'm finally going to put words to the photograph I took a year or so ago called 'In The Rabbit Hutch' I'm writing it as I go along, with photos and illustrations. I'll sell the original and do some limited edition prints of it, then I will type it out and get it printed through a company. So that's something I'm looking forward to. Hopefully next week sometime I'm going to get lost in a forest like The Cure did and maybe make that video I was talking about a while ago, with the white horse and a poem. I will be an It Speaks project I think... but now I'm just going on aren't I? this cannot be interesting to read at all. I will write this all on a list; I like lists, even if I don't manage to cross them all out they make nice beginnings for new lists .......

A Sign

Sometimes ... there are magpies outside my window.

The crows and I like to watch them.

(I count 14 ... you?)

Lot of Days...

...Have passed...

with no internet - or very little.

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Another new house; just up the street, another new name; Natanya Louise Waybourne, another new couple of frocks in my etsy shop; http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com/ (more to come soon)

why?...

Because the noise my housemates and the mice were making in that other house was unreal, I thought that I had no concept of time... I was wrong; they were the masters of ignorance of all time frames, dates and other people. I won't get started on the mice, however nonchalant they were. They were all there before me anyway so I thought it best I leave. Now I'm a little further up the street in a lovely house with non of the above. Me, Maria and Luna moved me again in the middle of the night ... we all woke up with heavy arm and bruises in funny places. Did you ever play that game when you stand in the door frame and push your arms into the frame... then when you walk forward and relax your arms they go up of their own accord? weeeeell... that's what it felt like. My new room is yum, it's flowery... but most of all yum. When I get the internet again I will post some piccies :) When I woke up the day after moving day the tree opposite the window was filled with magpies ... about 10 - 15 (there will be a pic of this too) I was so happy :) it feels like I should definitely write some more of my book now .... it was a sign!

My name because, the old one wasn't really mine, and I like this one more *

And I am inspired - lots of dresses etc to come soon...

* K1 P1 K3 P3 rep frm * to end

... That's not the pattern, but... I'm getting faster. Working on some woolen pretties to sell in my shop. Shawls, leg-warmers with pom poms and hopefully some cardigans (huge baggy ones, inspired by a vintage one I found) My new shop with be more broken down victorian doll than before and my new website will look like a real secret garden. I'm lost in my own little world today ...

Soon I shall take some pics of my new dresses in front of my new butterfly backdrop ... excited with a head full of creative explosions...

boom*

Lovelyness

Today Julia and Shelley got married. They both looked beautiful *** and the party room looked awesome; All in all a wonderful day of sparkles and lovely suff :)

*It does exist*

Butterflies and cakes

Butterfly duty is the best duty to be on. I do butterfly maths and pay with buerfly wind dust ... all special for Julia and shelleys wedding tomorrow.
Maria joins me on my quest for blue ones, pink ones and the illusive green variety of Covent Garden.
We forgot our Butterfly net, so we go to think up a plan in a near by muffin&coffee shop. the caffeine, chocolate and sight of brightly coloured icing helps tremendously... we have a plan.
We run into Lush and buy some soap that looks like melon (past the face mask dishes that look like dips for crisps) and back to the buerfly hide out. We coat the pretty white shelves with slidey soap and wait; clean.
The butterflies attempt their landing but slip and slide with all their legs and fall ino the wicker basket we made earlier from liquorice strips - ah-ha! we won! we pay and make a run for it... back to the forest!