What Natanya Did : Day to Day Today...

Peacocks a plenty...

2012-01-28T20:02:00.007Z

* Ruby Heels * ordered a rag doll halter dress from me, asking for it to be inspired by the colours of a peacock, and here it is. In my search for inspiration I stumbled on some peacock wonders from Etsy land and I'm going to share some of my findings with you...

Here's where to find them : * Vintage Art * Necklace * Fascinator * Artwork *

... looking forward to the Solocosma 'Emmaline' print I've just ordered to arrive ...

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Tales from The Treehouse

A train booked and I can't wait to get there, just a trip and less exciting than yours I guess. That place brings back all those thoughts and nights and breaking slowly, but I'm not the one who's getting on the plane, but the train, like I said. There needs to be days full of nothing in between everything sometimes because I think the laughing man was right about the addictions, to feelings, to people. So when they say 'I need to miss you' maybe this is what they mean, though I've only heard that once and it was before the plane, the first plane, long ago. So maybe not. But one day when there's nothing for real I will be able to sleep without having the feeling I was dreaming all this wrong. I miss you, and will, in a good way...

* FaceBook * EtsyShop *

Here, Backwards, Sleeping Stood up...

2012-01-20T01:09:00.004Z

Tales from the Treehouse

Back here in my room too soon, wishing I could be yellow but I'm red and silver flecked with white all over and it's burning up inside... do you understand? I hope so because I can still smell the fir fire on my coat and wish for things when I shouldn't and don't talk but think too much, knowing if I say all the things there will be no-one there to say it to. That is why, and you know I think but we're still left guessing all thinking differently maybe, un-knowing and always kind of lost, but, happy in limbo... until one day, I'll ask. But then it will all disappear like a fairy story that was read aloud in the day time because the patience was not there to wait 'till dark, going up like smoke; the signal lost in clouds, unheard... I've written about smoke before.

A Fairy Story found me again and then I got lost...

2012-01-14T23:32:00.018Z

On an Etsy late night tour again, between knitting rows of dresses I found these lovely pieces of a fairy story, so of course I thought I'd share them with you...

Where to find them: * Paper Doll * Bed * Ring * Art Box * Pendant *

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Tales from The Treehouse

Lost in a paper doll world, pins, hinges. A shadow puppet I found by the window danced. We were so tiny we could fit under the bedroom door like a secret letter addressed to Geppetto. Soon we will be real. The brightest star is already there, she said we have to wish. But first let's go play in the garden. It's so big because we are so small and it will take forever to see it all...

Fairytale delights from February 2012 Vogue UK...

2012-01-10T17:27:00.006Z

* Alexander McQueen * Meadham Kirchoff *

... Inspiring, beautiful ...

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Tales From The Treehouse

In a box of fabric, sewing with one arm hanging outside and one leg on the peddle while my hands do some knitting... I have lots of ideas thanks to pretty delights like these... will dream them up when all my custom orders are done and sent. A letter from a pink room reads I'm making Audrey Kitching a dress too and also should take the Black Swan creation off the back burner for Miss Martini... sewing through my dreams will happen soon.

And then I was left wondering who, and why and all those niggling questions that go away never even when you ask them nicely ... you wonder about existing and why and it's pointless and I know... but don't run away from it, let's just make up our own reality, they did it first after all, and for the time being join me in mine; in my nest I made myself... it looks prettier when you're in it. The world will go away soon; it fades when you let it... just don't let them take you over.

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Nicole Sandoval in her Flutterbydaisy Dress, and Dreaming, and Wondering...

2012-01-09T19:13:00.005Z

* Two beautiful photos from Nicole taken on her wedding day in her Flutterbydaisy dress *

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Tales From The Treehouse

It came all late, before I would have sold a leg to be there and now I'm just content in limbo living to work out who makes my dreams - the ones I have during the day. Sometimes I don't think it's me because I end up in want. If I am the writer then why?... I feel like that little bit of wool that's curly at the end of the ball waiting to be joined on to the next with a knot... to one day become a whole jumper, with sleeves.

Necklace Love: Macabre to Fairytale, and the curiosities between...

2012-01-07T00:40:00.009Z

...an Etsy filled day searching through the weird and wonderful... on my way I found these amazing necklaces and clearly want them all... so I thought I'd share my findings with you...

and here's where I found them: * Butterfly Wing * Bee * Real Butterfly * Rabbit * Doll *

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Tales From The Treehouse

Falling away in beautiful days, duvet days where it's a tent and the flowers inverted leave shadows on your face. We look at the moon, but I already feel as though I'm there with you... it shines a strange colour and there's a ladder leading, I'm sure it doesn't matter how many runs we climb as long as we were making our way up at the same time. We'll get there one day, or not, but either way the journey will be the loveliest... let's run away to the beach when the sky is clear and read each others words, light fires and move stones with just our minds

Athena Miller in her Flutterbydaisy Dress; Mad for Tea; and Knitting Pretty...

2011-12-31T03:36:00.009Z

* Athena Miller in her Flutterbydaisy Dress *

Love these photos Athena sent me today... very Alice in Flutterland...

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Tales from The Treehouse

Today disappeared. Laughing with my lil bro that boredom caught on until I tea stained almost the entirety of my wardrobe in the sink ... now everything matches. Thinking up frills to wear tomorrow for doing nothing with you, I'm thinking something tea stained, clearly, wrapped in a red bow to let go of the sparkles we're buying before we do and eat lunch; we like plans when they are to do nothing. The rest of my non-day was spent knitting, there I sat, here, I have lots of knittedness in the making for a few lovelies...Knit knit... lala knit... la la...full of wool. It would be nice in the morning of the postman posted me my camera films *crosses fingers and toes* typing of postmen - the case of the missing package was open, had chapters and is now solved and Sabines dresses are safe home with her to dance in for New Years hurrah!

I hope you all have a beautiful one filled with Magic and sparkles xx

Daisy Daisy, la la la lala la... and all those birds

2011-12-22T18:24:00.010Z

... I got me a bike ...

... Then I went for a ride around ...

... She comes from here : www.eastcoastbicycles.co.uk ...

... and was delivered by two Xmas Elves ...

... Then I was happy ...

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Tales from The Treehouse

I couldn't sleep, even though I made new feathers for my nest. It was just the same as the past time when I could only sleep as your parrot, like that poem I wrote you, but this time I'm the bird girl; He landed in my garden, I wanted to feed him but every time I got too close he flew away. Always the same, always birds, sparrows and nests... why? because all those flutters they make make me happy, but don't talk about their cages, they don't like that... even if the cages are as big as the world and more beautiful. This is all I've learned about my birds... that and I probably couldn't be happy without them, in that case I'd probably become one.

The Moon, The Star, Shuna's Video and The Magic Lady...

2011-12-21T21:03:00.003Z

* SHUNA in her Magical video wearing her Flutterbydaisy dress *

Tales from the Treehouse

She was standing, stooping, swaying, velvet purse in hand, lips coral, fabric long and hair longer, silver threaded and weaved. I saw her see me... she is The Moon, The Star and no cards in between : telling me to be patient, to wait through a storm that is here or coming, in the end it could be possible, whatever it may be... but beware The Moon especially when it's looking. I wonder where she went when she left, walking, gait irregular and strange... She could have been the future, the past or from another time all together, she was definitely not from the here and now. Beautiful, effortless, ageless and made of pure magic...

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A Pretty Packet...

2011-12-14T22:38:00.004Z

* Lola *

Today a pretty polka dot packet arrived from the postman tied with a red ribbon, inside was a present; this print of Lola from my petal Luna ... here is her website : lunaviola.com :

I miss all the past times, the flat eggs, the Big Red drinking sessions, the hangovers, Spaghetti House, friends on TV, our rooms, moving, over coffee gossip and all the times in between... Sending Luna lots of love from all the way over here xxx

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Tales from the Tree House

Never ending mornings and my curtains make everything look like summer and you say it's like another world. We can go to our usual and order our usual from the bear man after watching bad movies with saltcorn; we're here for the snacks. Homemade soup and gifts and then I start to daydream but stop myself just in time, because I don't have to anymore...

Playing with Cameras in The Garden...

2011-12-07T00:14:00.009Z

Some photos printed from a shoot a couple of months ago when it was still warm enough to dance around the garden in a summer dress, just. We took our old and new cameras to play...

* Film prints by Mike Blowman *

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Tales from The Treehouse

I'm trying to be healthy and I think I'm allergic to it ... my body is unsure what to do with all this fruit and soup inside and keeps asking me where all the caffeine is at. Berries in my washing and not even a bubble in my bath. My bed is a nicer place to be now though... also because sometimes, like in a minute you rock up at my door, I like that. That other place seems so far away right now, and more, and I don't much mind it seems - I guess here is growing on me again; moss not mould... but not for long because the middle of nowhere calls, like now, but in reality and with more fields...

Between a Raven and a Writing Desk...

2011-12-02T00:08:00.004Z

Alice in Wonderland 'Drink Me' Pendant

by The Mymble's Daughter

...I wore it here : love it...

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Tales from The Treehouse

Sewing thread and wrapping jersey over wire; a flower. Finished a dress, packed wrapped... time went slow and then too fast some of it went away because the Clock ran out of tick. Walking around The North Point, seeing what you saw; the walking grey... I try not to breathe it in, and them: they see me see them so I blink longer. A wall of wool is the only wall there that looks the same, it all smells the same though and I remember that dream I kept having about being stuck in this place. You have to pay at the front so I did. Now I'm going to knit it all together. Would be lovely to visit the day we sat listening to Golden Oldies and sewing sparkles on to butterfly wings; there was no grey then... Where did all those colours go?

I said it... and The vintage Fair

2011-11-30T16:24:00.007Z

We went to The Vintage Fair : there were delights a plenty, so I bought some...

A set of mix and match 'Love' Scrabble Rings and an old mink Butterfly brooch

This Look on Lookbook.nu

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Tales from The Treehouse

Too many pillows and not enough, lined up fluff.

Movie in the dark then count to see when we can see, what we can see.

..Buns and words and love.

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Pretty Prints from the Woodlands...

2011-11-29T01:19:00.005Z

* By This Years Girl *

... I finally bought a couple of prints from one of my favourite artists...

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Tales From The Treehouse

I bought one for him, because I like him. I'm the bunny. One day, on my future walls will be this and more art/prints, on another will be butterflies, dragonflies and moths... curiosities beyond; A place to fall away, be and dream, it's not about stuff, or having, but about whatever it wants to be, a secret place to share: beautiful. Because maybe, if it's even possible to stop ourselves from being attached to others, another, on one, the one, we are left with just ourselves, be everything, anything all at the same time, not being able to even give, all the while saying nothing, it's heavy, like one of those dreams where your feet can't run and your voice stays inside. Maybe then we revert back and keep going until were living in a dolls house or a fort in a field. Even if they aren't real places and just in our minds. Both are the same and I'm afraid I'd rather ... no, I'm just afraid. My fish can't breathe, the line won't catch, the bread sinks to the bottom and everyone is hungry.

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Jack and Jill... fell down a hill...

2011-11-24T04:45:00.010Z

Jack and Jill dresses now in my etsy shop with matching Knits

* Location Photos by Twitch Photos *

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Tales from the Treehouse...

There was a fire outside the house of boats, bands music and a film all going at what seemed to be once, said the bottle of cocktail. Couldn't move away far enough, my face : melting chairs... then it was the next day and we missed it because we changed the speed of time. It was light for only 5 minutes and we could see each other the whole time. Another night, next night, slowly, there was a man made from pure sinew and banjo juice... my brain was lost but I was there, I know that because my hangover ate a whole pizza. Today a day of knitting and photos with room for Frozen Planet where penguins speed up time too - we must be penguins. Adventure time tomorrow/today/later...

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Girl of my Dreams... Lula

2011-11-12T15:16:00.009Z

* Polaroid From Lula Magazine Issue 2 *

* Cover print from Lula Magazine issue 1 *

One day walking through eBay I came across an A5 Kirsten Dunst embellished Lula Advertisement postcard from 2007, I was trying to get another Lula fix after I'd bought all the back issues I had previously missed, so I bought it and cyber-bumped-into Becky Smith, the creative director of Lula up until issue 8, we got to talking and now I have lots of Lula goodies arrive in the post, some of which are these prints and polaroids that now live on my wall. I'm a happy bunny and so is my wall...

* 3 more Lula Polaroid out-takes *

More tales from the treehouse:

Pool in a favourite unlikely haunt and there's me and there's you and we're talking about things that matter and I'm happy. I won't try to keep the pirate that wants to run away to play in fields in the dark with twigs for breakfast, as much as I'd like to - because that would be selfish. I do like mornings now though and falling asleep and all the things we do in between. Witness me fall. But not stupidly this time, not blindly, just completely.

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Horses, Some With Bells On...

2011-11-09T01:07:00.003Z

Pretty new pics by Twitch Photos of my Unicorn and Carousel Horse Dresses

now in my Flutterbydaisy Etsy Shop

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...As I try to not hope I stop to think, and then stop thinking. Maybe this is fleeting, like what they say about ships, but with less of the innuendo, or perhaps more, whichever way it's looked at from. At least it stops the stress of wondering, because this way there's nothing to wonder about. There's just the now, the bit they say we should live for, but sometimes, secretly, I think in that time and I hope. It's not healthy.

Too Much Cake... and eating it all

2011-11-03T02:28:00.010Z

There was far too much cake at our tea party, the paper hearts on the walls

kept falling too.... on top of the sleeping pigeons...

* Tea Party Dresses now in my shop *

www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

Photography : O-Ten Imaging

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I was back for a while and fell down the well at last, at least, I'd been thinking about it for a while. I think I'm sad to come back in a way as I was sad to leave at first and now I truly am in two places two minds too much. I'm fine everywhere now though which is nice. I'll go back whenever I'm not here and be here when I'm not back, maybe that is perfect after all. There will still be a pretty house- wherever I am. My room follows me around and the other night it was filled with you. Tonight we turned the windscreen to paper; painted with the tips of our fingers. Followed the short cat and left too soon... I will watch Wonders of the Solar System now... and maybe fly.

Some Birds are hard to cage...

2011-10-22T18:21:00.006+01:00

Bird Dress in my shop now, photographed beautifully by my flower Danniella Jaine

www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

www.facebook.com/Photography.By.Danniella.Jaine

Can't wait for our play date when we will shoot each other : Bubble guns at the ready!

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It's all going on, always the same and they prove what we were talking about. But I fear there are two extremes and I'm forever wanting to be in the middle and forever struggling to or from one end of this teeter - tatter. Playground talk again. I think we understand; the same page, but then I go back to what I was saying before. Do you know that it was beautiful? ... sometimes they want to keep beautiful things and make them last forever, maybe this time they will be you, because it's definitely me - but I'll never tell you that, because we said they think the impossible. We stayed that way for years in a few hours... felt like home. I miss that.

The photographer stole my breath: they do that sometimes

2011-10-20T15:33:00.004+01:00

I came across : www.aelalabbe.etsy.com

and now I'm in love

Go see her work because it's beautiful...

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Last night I stayed awake until this morning. It started with a loose end and finished with my camera remote. I customise things now more than before. Up-cycle. Outfit on LookBook, Garments on Etsy. Seven places at the same time non have meaning, and my head spins.... I'm also in the middle of joining Model Mayhem - as Photographer/Fashion Designer. Not sure if it will find me more prettiness in the world to collaborate with, but we shall see. That word just got stuck; sometimes people aren't what they say... recently, sneaky, bleak. But let's not talk about that now. I was wondering about acquaintances too : there are many he said... then sent me a photo of the sky where I got lost before. But not friends he said. I get it I said. he said I said. We said. Then I stopped talking. I should go next week, unsure why. Either and both the same until I make things up, believing them gets me into trouble. A song just came on; I was five again. Impossible, then sad. I want to get lost in the sky for real, but for now my room is what will keep me; there's no-one in there and right now I like that.

A Tale of Two Witches...

2011-10-18T02:16:00.007+01:00

Mirror Mirror on the wall... Two new Black and Gold dresses

photographed by Hanna Daisy : www.facebook.com/hannahdaisyphotography

now in my Etsy shop : www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

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I had a little sleep that lasted a couple of days, it wasn't like in the fairy stories though; there was no-one leaping from the wings transferring a spotlight or anything. It was more like the radio downstairs got louder... or my alarm worked... or my dream was a bit too freaky to stay in... or I was a bit too freaky for my dream to keep me. So I managed a biscuit breakfast and came back upstairs where the internet stole me and still is ...

I became obsessed with 'lookbook' and made a profile : http://lookbook.nu/flutterbydaisy

...tomorrow I will be productive; work on the Garden Party dresses for the shoot Wednesday with Mike Blowman... looking forward to seeing the Tea Party shots from O-Ten Photography and the Self Portrait Bird Dress series from Danniella Jaine... I also have a magic dress on it's way to me which I can wait to get into... I'm not tired yet but I'll sleep now, because I should.

Alicia Fairy made a Flutterbydaisy Fairy...

2011-10-17T01:53:00.004+01:00

From rag doll scraps of Flutterbydaisy dresses was born a beautiful doll, and from photos of dolls will come life sized dresses; a pretty collaboration...

Take a peek into Alicias world:

Blog: www.dollandpea.blogspot.com

Etsy: www.TheDollAndThePea.etsy.com

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I went into the past last night, I waited by the door, I looked through the gaps in the fence; I got stuck. Sometimes I get stuck and then realise half an hour later. The birds didn't fly from the grass because I was that still... I don't know what or who I was waiting for but the idea made me cry. I didn't see anything through the gaps and no one came. It took me a while to get to sleep because it was already the next day and I was thinking of all the past times. The birds were talking, but not to me. I think I must have fallen asleep then and I know I dreamed of you, but your not who you think, it's not you and neither am I. It's someone else and so am I.

If you go down to the woods today...

2011-10-14T03:26:00.006+01:00

This has to be my favourite photo from the new Lula (13) ...

I would like a giant teddy bear, yes please...

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In other news : I've broken my sewing speed record and just finished the fourth Tea Party Dress for tomorrows shoot where a doll by the name of Laura with be playing house with me in frocks made from tea towels and lace for O-Ten Photography - shall post soon and will be putting all four dresses in my Etsy shop... speaking of which, there are still two Hallowe'en dresses left ... oooo and that reminds me - tomorrow is also the day of The Spooky Hannah Daisy shoot with two black and gold dresses, cannot wait to see the set! last I heard Hannah was full of pumpkins and candles... will post those soon too ... and guess what, the two dresses will also be in my shop - right the caffeine is wearing off, must sleep so I get up on time : mornings are over rated; wish me luck.

Pumpkins at the Ready...

2011-10-10T01:32:00.002+01:00

boo! I'm already surrounded by Pomegranates, bobbing for apples and making costumes...

this is by far my favourite time of year... come play?

... Four Flutterbydaisy Hallowe'en Dresses have just been added to my shop:

www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

Splash : Mermaid Beautiful Polaroid...

2011-10-04T02:59:00.004+01:00

** A polaroid from the latest shoot of Allison Harvard **

* model wears her Flutterbydaisy mermaid tale *

...more to come...

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http://www.allisonelizabeth.com

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Snow White and Rose Red...

2011-09-28T13:06:00.006+01:00

It's all going on in Flutterbydaisy land : working on two black and gold dresses for a creepy shoot with Hannah Daisy, four Hallowe'en dresses to go straight into my shop in time for Old Hallows, just finished a Rag Doll custom dress for Amanda that inspired me to make a few more and go dancing in the forest in them for a shoot with a friend... also organising shoots with Oaten Photography and Mike Blowman... one with twee dresses made out of tea cloths and the other maybe bringing my short story 'Unknitted' to life... : too much stuff - my head just exploded petals out...

Snow White and Rose Red Dresses are now in my shop

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

.. Shot by Twitch Photos...

http://www.facebook.com/twitch.photos

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Into The Wild ... and with Saloon Girls

2011-09-23T01:27:00.005+01:00

** Two favourite dresses brought back to life **

find them now in my Etsy shop via the website:

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

* Photography by Daniella Jaine : www.facebook.com/Photography.By.Danniella.Jaine *

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Flutterbydaisy Hearts Allison Harvard

2011-09-20T23:00:00.004+01:00

Sweetest Petal Allison Harvard returns for the new cycle of Americas Next Top Model ; She rocks her Flutterbydaisy Frock in the 1st eppisode ... (from 7.08)

xx Love xx

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Up bright and early tomorrow to start on a few new dresses I had in my head whilst wondering the streets of London... including some special Hallowe'en frillies...

will also be adding photos from the lastest set by Daniella Jaine, which by the way is stunning! check my FB page for the pics and links to her FB page too...
xxx

Back where it's lovely

2011-09-18T17:22:00.001+01:00

Back down in London where it's lovely... Missed everyone so much. Its great to hang out with David again and see Fable getting bigger - he's a tiger now! And to live in The Big Red with Michael and Sylvia (and pass out in a Foyer) big misses, go to our favourite Secret Garden hide out with Stephanie followed by a Portobello Road stroll - love my fairy, old time drinking at The Worlds End with Steph before she goes on her journey around the world, come for a picnic visit to Lisa and Marinas, see the fairy Frida and Princess Matilda and catch up with Maria, Tiina, Luna, Erin and Kolli... Funny to bump into Rich on a street in Soho too! Soon, very soon. It seems like before now I was in a daze, of course reality is not my place to be, and Hull far less. Anyway, I like that only I get to write and keep pages of my diary- I would never delete the ones I pen and I don't believe in ghost writers...
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Americas Next Top Model 'All Stars' cycle 17 has started : my petal Allison Harvard rocks her Flutterbydaisy dress in ep 1 (will post videos soon)

The Magic Dragon...

2011-09-07T02:34:00.002+01:00

It seems forever ago that the dragon was here, breathing, sometimes fire... To me, with me... taking me, and to fields in human form. Sunflowers. Where's the rabbit hole at now? I said, but the dragon can't hear me; he's too far gone. It seems forever ago, but in reality it was just the other day. Same thing. Come take these post cards down...

Snow Horse...

2011-09-03T11:51:00.005+01:00

In the far corner of The Transport Museum under snow in the Autumn we found a hiding horse... I remember being here when I was tiny to eat carrot cake on the weekend : he must have been hiding pretty well back then ... or maybe I imagined him now. The boats bobbing outside seem smaller too... and the old coaches with plastic horses - they pretend to take you places, but you still have to get back out where you started. In the gardens are children playing ping pong, old ladies drinking tea, birds talking amongst the trees and a little boy in a top hat, on his own singing into the lake - he was my favourite. I always thought the apothecary was here somewhere, but maybe it's hiding in another museum to be found on our next trip...

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Today I am working on a mermaids tail for the beautiful Allison Harverd, will later be dreaming up two dresses for my up-coming Brothers Grimm style collaboration with Twitch Photos, simply cannot wait to see the new photography of three old favourite Flutterbydaisy dresses by the magical Danniella Jaine, and the Flutterbydaisy inspired doll my favourite fairy girl Alicia Gaultier is making from some dress scraps I sent her on a pidgeon ... *

Among My Swan...

2011-08-15T17:18:00.001+01:00

Road trip to Skipton, through the Heather fields over hills under clouds... We walked along the canal and you held my hand while I talked with the swans. I'd like to live there now, in a Rosie and Jim boat... But I don't think you can plug anything into a boat so I'll have to hand stitch all my dresses, or just paint and write instead: Quack Quack...

The Flutterbydaisy Day Dress and Petticoat

2011-07-22T20:53:00.003+01:00

... choose your size and colour ...

Visit my shop via the website :

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or order via email :

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Behind the Scenes

2011-06-01T10:06:00.004+01:00

... At the 'Black Swan Fairies' shoot ...

Models: Mia & Alex

Pixie Assistant: James

These dresses and original instant photographs are available in my shop now

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/
More Dresses / Originals / Prints / Art to come...

xxx

buzz buzzy

2011-05-27T21:19:00.003+01:00

It's all happening in Flutterbydaisy land - I've done lots of shoots including sets with Jess, Alex and Mia, some pretty girls I found who are really fairies... more to come and also collaborations with other artists, photographers and doll makers like the beautiful Danniella Jaine, Alicia Wrist and Mika Jones who is drawing up my Flutterbydaisy T-Shirt design for me to start screen printing for you... maybe one day I will sleep - but not yet, I'm too busy dreaming...

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New Dresses/Art/Prints/Originals can be found in my shop from June

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Forever and a day...

2011-05-06T18:28:00.001+01:00

A few lines to Grandad, from Nana: 'i'll leave the moon and milky way, to give to you another day'. Then I found them in the garden...
Love. Right there.
I have all nanas poetry upstairs, I'm planning on getting it all printed up and bound: maybe I could use 'blurb' ... I've not actually used it yet; my computer didn't like the program, but I'll try again when I get a new one.
I'm planning on making a photo journal of flutterbydaisy stuff... It's one of my thousand plans.
I'm sending a few frocks to a couple of beautiful photographers over the next week so there will be pretty pics of fluttery girls on my etsy page soon in my new dresses for sale. I'm also working on made to order frillies and have planned a shoot with the gorgeous Alex and Mia : were going to take a picnic in a field and shoot four art dresses with my Mini Diana and Instax Mini 7s... Which I'm totally excited about as I've not done a shoot in what feels like forever (will sell originals and prints via etsy) AND one other day ill be Flouncing around a secret Forest with my friend Mike who will be taking some more snaps... All of the above will hopefully be in this journal at the end of the year ... Aaand breathe... Does anyone have any spare hands? I need more hands...

* Freya Mavor in her flutterbydaisy frills *

2011-04-11T00:39:00.005+01:00

* Freya Mavor (Mini - Skins) *

I sent a dress with a flock of birds that landed at Freya's door. It was meant to be: a frock from the flock, so she wore it through the forest...

Inspired by 'The Red Shoes': Newspaper print, vintage lace and cream, like the part when she is too tired to dance but can't stop through the night ...

* www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk *

Paris, bunnies, crepes and cupcakes

2011-03-30T21:45:00.006+01:00

I managed to bump into bunnies all over Paris, we spoke French a bit, or tried, drank too much coffee everyday, walked everywhere! saw a gummy bear waiting for a bus, will never forget 42, passed out by the Eiffel Tower, ate oranges, salads and chocolate crepes, marvelled at joggers, saw a red panda, laughed at French Marge Simpson, tried to make more noise (by jumping on the bed)that the either loved up couple or the busy working woman in the next hotel room to ours was making, and only bought one pair of sunglasses: blue heart shaped lenses. yum. In other news, I was working hard to get all of my '20 Cupcake' dresses ready before the end of the month but some good things and not so good things all came up at once, firstly I got lots of lovelies requesting made to order dresses :) but then on less happy hand my sewing machine exploded :( I have worked her to death for 8 years now, so it was inevitable. There will be a funeral soon. So my theme is probably going to run a week or so longer - but they will all be there soon I promise! :) Coconut Dream, Very Berry and Marshmallow Melt have just been added to my shop, go take a peek at my new look website ... http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

Park without jazz

2011-03-15T01:21:00.001Z

I took a break and went for a walk in the park. Wish to be in the past for just half an hour. Lunch was made difficult by bad jazz, but there were pretty pencil drawings on the wall that looked like photos, so that made it better. Had 500 million coffees and walked around some more. I like lazy days. Today was not lazy at all; got up early made two dresses; dyed my hair, half the bathroom and half my face; did a bit of knitting; lost photography, found photography; thought about eating, but didn't have time; thought about Brian Cox and Betelgeuse; wrote a bunch of emails; almost fell asleep in the bath again; tidied my tiny room; wrote this

20 Cupcakes - February through March

2011-03-07T20:14:00.004Z

Hello lovelies...

* 20 Cupcakes *

I've added five up to now, three of which have found new homes... fifteen more to come; here and there before the end of March :)

...as always with Fairy, Day and Scrapbox dresses in between...
Bunny Fluff xxx
http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

Sirens, whales and a scary doll

2011-03-03T01:13:00.001Z

In a nut shell: Ferens art is low but Odysseus is top of the list, I wrote it on a note before... We filled ourselves with caffeine and cake then stepped into my past: whales, ships lights and things you can touch, I touched the same vertebra with smaller hands... Keep eyes peeled for the tiny rope and this scary laughing doll that eats twenty pence pieces. The polar bear looks smaller now. Coffee then records, old new bikes that cost too much, busses that are too full. Too much food, then pool with flashbacks of being there in the heat and giant bottles, back to now and there's the worst of 90s pop on the jukebox and nothing on at the cinema so we watch more movies instead. "Hahaha" said the laughing doll.

Haunted

2011-02-25T23:29:00.001Z

The morning was fuzzy, then I found myself in Whitby. Saw a tiny puppet show by the sea, and got lost inside an antiques shop that went on and on... There was an open fire right at the back surrounded by dolls and their houses, victorian prams and dusty high chairs... In one of which sat a doll with no face and who's hands were sewn to her face as though crying. I wanted to take her home, but I couldn't. The lady at the front told me all about the sad little doll in the back, she said she usually stands in a corner but she keeps moving around. I feel upset for not giving her a home, but maybe she's ok by the sea and the fire...

Treasure

2011-02-19T02:18:00.002Z

Some treasure I've collected ... Some giant Brass keys and doilies from ebay, A little clementine that I have had for 2 years - it has no holes or insides is as light as a feather and I think it's magic, two bunnies... one rescued from a dusty charity shop and one a gift from David, two jars little and large... one from Dom with a bunny spirit inside and one from Alicia wich has a fairy in which she made herself with her hands, There are two things from my Nan... a chalkboard on which she drew a rose when I was 8 and a stone she found in a cave she visited with my Grandad before I was born, there's an old tin there too - I found her at a jumble sale and I love her - she is full of more treasures - but they are secrets ... shhhh ....

***

I went to see Nan and Grandad today, she gave me another little treasure to add to my collection - a little shiney brooch... and Grandad showed me a big old case and told me it belonged to his Dad when he was in the army... it has treasures inside too. Great Grandad changed his birthday from February 20th to February 22nd so he could have it on the same day as me... Grandad was cooking when he was telling me - I like the way he says marrionating instead of marinating :)

Clearout : Pretty Frocks I'm Selling On Ebay...

2011-02-14T14:50:00.002Z

Today was another clear out day... so come and have a look in my Ebay for these frilly dresses I found in my cupboards ... and a few more...

http://shop.ebay.co.uk/natanyalw/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg

Etsy Photo Finds and a New Dress...

2011-01-31T16:32:00.004Z

I found these adorable photos by the lovely Ginger Lilly Tea they made me want to go frolic in the woods too ... theyre ultra dreamy and magical so I thought I'd share ... you can find her etsy shop here: www.gingerlillytea.etsy.com

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I also made a new tea stained juliet dress, it's mint green and has lace parts, bow bits and lots of swirl ... she's waiting in the magic loft now waiting for a friend :

www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

here she is:

I stayed awake for days and days...

2011-01-23T23:09:00.002Z

...with a basket full of wool on my lap. I knitted it all into this dress whilst listening to Emmy The Great. I lost track of all time ... but now I'm back and and its finished, there's a frilly petticoat with it too in peacock blue. Im going to go put my needles away now, untill another dress shouts me to knit it. I have to go bid on a pretty chair on Ebay, someone is trying to beat me because they dont realise it's really mine... if I don't win it I'm sure it will find me one day - I'll see it when I'm 50 at the back of a dusty antiques shop waiting...

***

http:www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

Esther Dee & The Carousel

2011-01-14T18:00:00.003Z

...Well I think you should buy this because Esther is the most beautiful doll... and her music is WONDERFUL !

... I hung mine from my tree ... lala la lala laa ...

When we took the photos we had lots of trees on set too that we stole from some workmen who were having a tea break from cutting a bunch down, we don't think they noticed ... we must have looked pretty funny running around London with them under our arms! "I'm carrying a tree" then Luna Viola was in charge of the pretty make up...

and the Flutterbydaisy dress now belongs to the lovely Camille :)

Here's how to get it...

http://wwwcdbaby/cd/estherdeethecarousel

or...

paypal Esther for a copy filled with flowers you can hold:

estherdee.thecarousel@gmail.com

£5.70 with postage

xxx

Alices' Wonderland

2011-01-09T21:36:00.012Z

Party Alice

Tea Party

Tweedle Dee

Caterpilla

White Rabbit

Flamingo

Queen of Hearts

Mad Hatter

Cheshire Cat

Alice in Wonderland

The whole January 2011 Alice's Wonderland Collection is now online

http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy .com

I have a lovely wesite fairy working on my new website as wee speak too :)

XXX

Happy bunny

2011-01-08T04:35:00.001Z

I have been attached to this, my little temporary sewing space which has tiny curtains (a pet hate of mine) for weeks now... Surviving on coffee, crackers and zero sleep, but it has all been worth it; I've finally finished my Alice's wonderland themed dresses for January - I only have to send 7 on a little photoshoot then hello etsy! I think I might be able to start putting them online on the 9th :) I'm exhausted, but a very happy bunny...

Rolling, Busy bee, bzz...

2010-12-30T02:00:00.001Z

This is Oskar, she put him in my tree when I wasn't looking and there he will stay. I'll talk to him everyday and he will be taking my photos from now on - I'll pass him the remote. We also started to make my new website look super pretty... there are pop up galleries, butterflies invading sepia photos and secret notes with links attached... We hope to get it online at the same time as my 'Alice's Wonderland' themed dresses are added to my etsy shop on the 10th January ... I've already sketched my '20 Cupcakes' themed dresses for February too - dear flutterbydaisies, I am officially on a roll...

Fairy Party Dresses #1

2010-12-05T14:59:00.007Z

Fairy Party Dresses #1

www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com

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Bubble clouds

2010-11-23T00:36:00.001Z

Falling asleep in the bath is not a good idea, but this morning I could have stayed here under the bubbles all day. Like from the bell jar. Unless I'm confusing her novel with her diaries... I just watched Where The Wild Things Are for the first time and loved it... And it's soundtrack made me happy. In Flutterbydaisy land I'm knitting three tops at the same time which Is a little confusing, but when I'm too overwhelmed with wool I'll jump back into the bath... Can't wait to show you all the dresses and bits & bobs I'm making for January... But for mow I'm going to go watch The Science Of Sleep and then I'll plan how I can make a little film, speaking of little films, I can't wait to get my hands on the DVD collection of Jan Svankmajers short films...

New Party Dress...

2010-11-08T20:18:00.002Z

In my shop: http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com/

flutterbydaisy.co.uk

xxx

New for 2011: Monthly Themes - send me your suggestions :)

Fabric waves

2010-11-05T22:47:00.001Z

... Lost in a sea of fabric, wool surf and felted earth hills roll in the distance, I can see them from my cotton boat whose lace sails are waving at you all the way over there. Tooth pick mast in hand and bound for the middle distance, the horizon cut with pinking shears... There are silk flying fish too, all waiting for you to come and join me on my little cotton boat before the beads of rain begin to fall...

In my head

2010-10-31T23:27:00.001Z

... I live here: There are tweeting owls and talking squirrels in the loft, cats on arms of pretty green chairs, rooms filled with dusty things, and out the back are fields and fields of bunnies - like Watership Down but with less bunny death and more fluff...

Twit Twoo

2010-10-20T10:05:00.004+01:00

It seems as though owls are everywhere... I found this (at obscurio.etsy.com) and think it's lovely, would love to add it to my little strange collection of goodies

I'm sure that the big fat bird that lands on the aerial on the roof above my room is an owl too... maybe it will turn into David Bowie like in the Labyrinth...

So today I will be starting to work on another set of dresses for my shop... I may even put some feathers on one in homage to my new little wide-eyed-turney-head stalkers...

Twit Twoo!

In the deep blue

2010-10-18T09:31:00.001+01:00

I found this little ship... I can hear tiny sailors on board sweeping the deck. There's a lonely one too, He's looking overboard for the mermaid he can still hear singing...

Another room the same

2010-10-08T00:10:00.001+01:00

I'm hibernating again, but not really... Me and London are just having a break. I'll be moving back down in a few months or so. This time I'm here, another room... A new old room. It's decorated with all the same flowers but feels different, I can breathe here, but not for long... My butterflies keep asking me what I'm doing and where the fluffy cats are I promised them... And there are no sparrows here. But there is a sewing room where I will be everyday making lots of new pretty things to fill up my shop with. I said a wish in this room a long time ago and I can still feel it everytime I walk in.... There are dusty boxes filled with dusty trinkets from the past and old books and vintage sewing patterns... I'm inspired here. Here is in my imagination, I'm never in a city. I'm in a giant toy box and there's a little corner to hide and write in...

Shh ... there are pixies in this forest ...

2010-09-21T15:02:00.003+01:00

Yesterday we went for a drive to a quiet little forest where we took some photos of some of the new dresses and knits I've made. We flashed a couple of birds a squirrels, but they didn't mind, they think dresses are silly things anyway... one man and his dog stopped by at some point, he told him we were pixies. There was a pretty fallen tree now a log which is where I decided I would live if I did ever shrink to the size of a pea (which I will one day) ... but today I'm trying to fix my website, it should be back online soon and prettier, maybe in a week or so ... more dresses and knits on their way too (if the goblins don't steal them) but for now here's where to find my shop direct: http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com/

Nightmares, Mermaids and Daydreams

2010-08-21T20:45:00.003+01:00

She fell away for a while. The trees fell away too, though the birds still remained; she could hear them - she thought their chirps were sirens song so she followed them blind with scissors in hand. With no paths left to follow it became easier to walk but harder for her to know where she had been; she didn't leave bread crumbs this time. It took her a long time to get back to the forest, but she made it in the end. She is sitting in her treehouse now, she is writing in the air and sewing dresses from leaves...

***

So much has happened... things I can't even remember so I can't write about them and things that I can remeber but I'd rather forget. So hear I am, starting again blogging to you - and I've missed you so much...

A tidbit:

I wanted to take all the tiny stray cats back home with me from Greece but they wouldn't all fit under my skirt (thats the best way to smuggle tiny cats out of a country by the way)

Some news:

I'm still knitting and sewing and writing. Dresses and knitted tops will be in my etsy shop next week - going to take photos of them on the Heath in the next few days. My book has new people and happenings and I hope to be finished within the next year...

Some distant future plans (fingers crossed):

Another Flutterbydaisy Fashion Show - somewhere outside in a park with a cello or a harp and with tea cups, butterflies, stalls, paintings and fairylights...

...it's nice to be back in the forest...

The Hare and the Squirrel

2010-07-03T14:33:00.003+01:00

My old postcard came ... I love it, put it in a frame next to my vintage rabbit painting. My collection of curiosities is growing, so now I have to keep an eye out wherever I go incase I miss something. Outside of my window just now a couple of squirrels just jumped across the trees in my garden and one of them fell off, I shouldn't giggle really - but I bet the other one did. So yesterday I celebrated my 100th sale via Etsy! went to meet Julia and Shelley at Big Red for a drink and a catch up... Getting ready now to go and meet everyone in Soho via Camden, it's sunny and it's Pride so we thought we'd go sit on a green bit somewhere to drink bubbley stuff.

Cinderella Petal Dress

2010-07-02T14:27:00.001+01:00

... Find it now ...

in my 'handmade' shop

via

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

***

Peachy Knit Top and Rara Skirt

2010-07-02T01:52:00.004+01:00

... Find them now ...

in my 'handmade' shop

via

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

***

Brief Encounters

2010-06-28T22:28:00.004+01:00

Found some bunny postcards in The British Museum ... one by Albrecht Durer. I bid on a vintage postcard of his Hare study which had been written on and posted once upon a time - can't wait to get it and see when it's dated. I wont be able to understand the message mind you as it is in German. But it looks pretty, going to frame him. The other postcards were of the Flopsy Bunnies; illustrations from the Beatrix Potter series. I also bought myself a mini netbook so I can transfer my book onto it and start writing out and about... first destination: Regents Park. I know I'm being a little bad as I'm still saving for my deposit, but this brings about good in a ying yang kind of way as I'll be making more frilly dresses for you :) (well that's how I'm justifying it to myself anyway) After our brief encounter with the bunny section at the museum we went to Habitat where I fell in love with a sofa named Louis, and Maria almost bedded a sheepskin rug (which she later bought)

Sunny, starry and all that's inbetween...

2010-06-27T11:09:00.002+01:00

On the train back down to London I counted all the bunnies ... there were 31 (I didn't count the blurry ones as I sometimes couldn't work out if they were in fact bunnies but rocks) Hull was nice, apart from being told that someone wasn't looking forward to seeing me because 'I'm into girls' - she didn't even want to stand next to me. It's strange that people can still feel this way; when I have children I'm definitely going to bring them up to be open minded and lovely, it's only fair. It's such a shame because I was actually looking forward to seeing them, but anyway - I'm sure she will come around and realise that I am not going to rape her, I'm not a monster and she can't catch sexualities by contact. I just wish everyone could be lovely... the world would be such a pretty place if everone was lovely :) anywaaaay ... It was so nice to spend time with Mum and the fam ... we went to Nanas and Grandads and they were listening to Glenn Miller and dancing around the kitchen, telling us that back in the day they used to be able to clear a dancefloor ... Grandad showed me old photos that I hadn't seen before where he looked like Bob Dillan and Nana looked like Audrey Hepburn. So beautiful. I shall have him send me some of the scans on disk so I can share them with you.

When I got back to London I went to Lunas and we had a good gossip and lots of hugs - I missed her a lot... and then when I got home there was a packet waiting for me - Andrea from Italy had sent me a camera as a gift : there are lovely people out there you see - going to go buy him something to say thank you, and get someone else a gift to pass on the good Karma and keep it moving ... today is a nice day, going to go meet Maria now in Camden for coffee - and take some new photos of stuff ...

My little brother took this photo of me by the way ... and titled it 'tired sister'...

Walking on Water

2010-06-21T13:26:00.004+01:00

On the busy train up to Hull (after I fell asleep on my arm and then woke back up again with a rubbery hand to find that everyone around me had gone - odd) I began to read 'Mr Vertigo' by Paul Auster... I found it in Oxfam when I was working there one day down in the basement and bought it for £2. It's not something that I would usually pick up, which is why I picked it up. It is strange, a little but whimsical and slightly dark... it makes me a tad uneasy and also makes me smile. I read a little more sitting here in the garden... The sun is heavy and lovely and there are the biggest bees I have ever seen here - you wouldn't think that they were supposed to be becoming extinct if you were here with me. I have Classic FM playing loud and fuzzy in the background ... I feel as though a should have a giant sprinkler and a bunch of friends with me in floppy hats and Summer dresses...

Mouse; Good : Plastic; Bad

2010-06-20T01:14:00.008+01:00

Went into the kitchen for snacks and it's The Day Of The Triffid crazy in my garden - the leaves of the tree that is nearly knocking on the back door are feet long... going to pluck one and press it in something heavy ...
... I found this print on Etsy and think it is darling I will buy some prints soon to fill my new living room when I get one. I also found a chais lounge on ebay for £20 but I'm being so good and not buying anything 'till I've moved which I hope to have done sometime within the next few months... but this little field mouse needs to come home with me one day, yes please. I found him here ( http://www.thisyearsgirl.etsy.com/ )
I'm going through a whole clear out stage, I got rid of two bags of stuff I'd horded earlier; my room was filled with dust monsters so I have been sneezing all day. I like tidy - think I'm going to buy some of those cardboard CD covers from Muji (I heart Muji) and do a transfer - I want to get rid of all the plasticy things around me...
Have decided, in other news, to sell my camera - she has a stuck mirror... I feel sad about it, but it's ok she has had enough of me and I have been cheating on her anyway with a younger model... she's called Diana Mini and I will buy her soon... she takes 35mm and makes photos look like stills from The Virgin Suicides and I've had enough of digital photography anywho (guess I can still keep my little ancient Olympus in a drawer, just incase)
On a train tomorrow - Hull again. Got a wedding to go to and some hanging out with the fam to do :)

Woof

2010-06-17T03:58:00.003+01:00

I watched The Delicious Miss Dahl explain to me that she fantasises over Buffalo Mozzarella while all the technology in my room broke down in a fit. The TV has always been broken and manages to stay on even when I've pushed the off button, but on top of this my phone went to sleep my laptop did a funny blue screen thing and then my camera exploded in the middle of my mini photoshoot. I am not a happy bunny. Obviously aliens came by my window - this is the only rational explination, that or just everything decided not to like me today or thought if they went to sleep or broke then I would finally give up to and go to bed... it is 4am afterall. But I really wanted to put my new knitted top and frilly rara skirt in my etsy shop; I managed to take one photo and it was this one and even it is blurry.

Anyway apart from all of this - earlier on Dom came to visit and we went for a long walk up Highgate Hill, stopped off to see some kittens, had a coffee, meandered round the park... and on our way back saw a Golden Retriever sitting outside of Tesco attached to a post looking as though he was appologising for being a dog. It was possibly one of the cutest things I've seen all week. I'm going to go count sheep now ... wish I lived in the countryside and everything inside my house was made of old things that smelled of vintage bookshelves...

Ballerina Dream Dress

2010-06-16T01:33:00.003+01:00

... find it In my Shop ...

via

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

***

Called by the antiques shop

2010-06-15T23:02:00.001+01:00

I was on my way to buy chicken after Luna said I should eat better instead of living on Rice Krispies and I was called by something inside the Antiques Shop... I thought it could have been the big red velvet and dark wood chair that was baking in the heat of outside at first, either because it was too hot, or it wanted to join my other chairs (since my little colection became famous this side of Holloway Road) but it turned out not to be the chair at all, so I went inside. I always find lovely things here, once a victorian parasol and another time a very old old map of Yorkshire. I found a little book of Whitby in there, but that was not what I wanted... what was shouting me was the cutest Lucky Rabbits Foot I have ever seen... and the stone on it looks like amethyst, which is my birth stone, so it was meant to be so I bought him and took him home. He is sitting on my book shelf now with a key that took my eye on my way out and the prettiest dressmaking scissors that Simona and Jason bought for me. Today I am happy and everything is lovely... as was my chicken dinner.

Sunshine Dress

2010-06-14T22:29:00.002+01:00

... In my shop ...

via

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

***

The Camden Rabbit Hunt

2010-06-13T22:19:00.001+01:00

Met up with Hannah today and we found this pretty awesomly grotesquely pretty bunny painting for only £1 ... it will be happy on my new living room wall, when I have a new living room wall.
The tea shop was our place of gossip and place to eat amazing sandwiches ... I have so many things to share with you too I think, maybe, maybe not, but I guess I can't do any of that yet... I'm sure it will all work out for the best, whatever the outcome of my (mis)adventures in lands of wonder...

Singing for the Swans

2010-06-08T22:09:00.001+01:00

I travelled all the way across London and past Richmond today to meet up with Stephanie. It's been far too long since we have seen each other and I missed her so much! we had a lovely day that started in the garden - we bought some horrible juice too, trying to be healthy, but is gave us both allergies before we gravitated into Waterstones... and then we ventured out to see the swans and deer in the park, which was a task... there was an evil swan stealer man on the bridge and all the deer were hiding because mean boys were playing football... so we fed the ducks. Over another little bridge we found Mr Swan; he came close so we could take pics - he was not shy, then we went home for soup and to play with all the technology because I forgot my wool...
At home again and I managed to stay awake 'till 8am - I'm sure this is not normal behavior for people who aren't owls.

Up on the...

2010-06-06T16:29:00.004+01:00

I went to go sit on my roof. I lost myself on the roof. But also had a chance to clear my head on the roof. I got chased off of the roof, by a wasp.

***

I thought it best not to call anyone ... sometimes you just need to be by yourself to think. Maybe all the way up there alone is not the best place to go to think about everything you have ever done wrong - but its gutsy I guess. Well I'm back down here in my room now so my meeting with myself must have gone well :) there are a lot of people I should forget about ... and a few people out there that I will meet one day... I don't know who any of these people are but I'm going to work it out on my next roof top visit. But for now I'm going to go get myself some ice-cream.

The Sparrow

2010-06-04T03:00:00.003+01:00

He wasn't in my dream this time; he paces along my window ledge and preens minding not who else is watching. He belongs in the orange tree at the end of my garden, but likes to tell me how happy he is standing here outside my window. I dream about letting him into my room to fly around... and now, here in the daylight I open my window. Later he will sit back in his orange tree, singing the songs he sang to me...

The Strangest

2010-05-24T22:25:00.003+01:00

Me and Luna went to The Bush Hall tonight to see Hope Sandoval. We didn't know if we could get tickets at first. We were told to come back at 9 which was the perfect excuse to go for a wonder around St Stephens. We went to H&M and I picked up an arm full of clothes then put them all back down again before heading off for salad. The salad place is called Tossed and they do lovely salads but on their T-Shirts is written 'I'm A Tosser' which I don't think is very 'salady'. We headed back down to the venue and got in. We didn't drink and neither did anyone else. She is stunning, her dress was pretty and she was very shy. The last song was a dream and during the songs there were films projected on the background - One of a ballerina. It was beautiful. Everything was beautiful untill we got back to Lunas and her fear THE MOUSE found her.... dum dum duuuum.

Mirror Mirror...

2010-05-23T22:13:00.003+01:00

I met Hannah today and we went for a walk around Camden. We managed to have so many different types of juice I think we lost count. Most came from the little man inside the cafe that looks as though it was made from trees. He told us that he made it with his soul and gave it to us in the form of shots. Strange but nice. I bought a floppy hat and we went to see the little foot eating fish too ... not that they eat feet, just the bits off of feet.... ok I'm making myself feel a bit queesey. We found a shop that we hadn't been in before too - it was filled with all of my favourite things; victorian parasols, old china tea sets and bizarre taxidermy. There was a big stuffed black swan at the back that we had to touch out of childish curiosity. The highlight was the glass dome of hummingbirds though. Then we found a big secons hand book shop and I wanted to but everything, but didn't. We were then directed through the maze of the back area of the market that half of each of us thought we probably shouldn't be allowed into and also afraid we wouldn't find our way out of... but we did and all in all we had a lovely day :)

The Zoo

2010-05-22T22:02:00.001+01:00

So today I went to visit the Zoo with Erin and we had far too much fun ---- untill we realised that we had missed the giraffe and the big walk through bird bit. We did however get to see the penguins, prairy dogs and the evil owls, yes, owls are evil - there were dead mice strewn all over the floor and they were glaring at them through the brances from the dark shadows at the back of the cage. I think the Zoo keepers put them so close to the fence in order to frighten children. This was by no means as scary as the carcasses left out for the vultures to pick at - I don't think they sing, as Disney suggests. We were especially impressed though with the butterfly house and this Writer Bird... Then I had an ice-cream. Yum.

Don't wake me up

2010-05-21T02:05:00.003+01:00

I woke up in a particular mood today. I had a dream about the sparrow. It was a test I'm sure, from my subconcious to my waking self. I won... won but in a particular mood. There's a spider looking down at me from the corner of the room. Since the wildlife moved into my kitchen I like spiders more, not so much so that I enjoy them staring at me but enough not to run around in my underwear screaming about it. I think this is a big step so at least said wildlife have served somekind of purpose other than to stop me from going in there after dark. I'm saving to move out, it will be lovely. I think I've decided to live on my own with an extra room to sew and a livingroom in which two ragdoll cats live. I'm still wanting to collect scary marrionettes and taxidermy butterflies - but they will have to wait 'till I gather some more gold coins. I would love one of those lay-down-chair-type-things too, and dining room chairs that are old and falling apart and don't match... and an old lady tea set from Camden Stables Market. I like stuff. Pretty Stuff makes me happy, even when it is temporarily flying through my dreams and making my insides drown.

Last of the Flutterbydaisy Fashion Show 2010 Dresses - now in my shop...

2010-05-21T02:01:00.002+01:00

Flutterbydaisy Fashion Show 2010 Dresses

Just put the last three in my online shop

Find them here:

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

xxx

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds #5

2010-05-18T23:03:00.002+01:00

* NEW *

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds

'Shop' via:

www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

xxx

And another...

2010-05-15T01:27:00.005+01:00

Luna came over to get ready and drink wine. We went to Dublin Castle to see The Dogbones. It all gets a little cloudy after that. Maria, David and Luna went home at some points and I had more wine that I didn't really need. Then I was elsewhere, untill we walked through the streets staring at the sky. You carried my shoes, my feet are not happy with me. There are others who are less happy with me, I think, vaguely. I guess I wish he could have stayed. I need to stop from turning events to fairytales. You see this is another, and this is not quite normal. I walked to Lunas as I couldn't even imagine sleeping but instead had other thoughts - even though you said goodnight, but I did sleep later - and I will sleep again now. Wish I could stay asleep for a couple of weeks or so. I wish so many things.

She whispers and shouts...

2010-05-13T00:17:00.002+01:00

... But her words are lost. Not in the breeze or on backs of white coated waves, but on deaf ears. She thinks in beautiful sentences but they come out plain, she says it how it is then, and then becomes stupidly stupid. Maybe the one who lost her words did infact just throw them away; I imagine them now strewn on the pavement outside the window. He thinks she doesn't mean it. Or means it too much; both scary I guess, for a boy. But she has just never felt this way before, well maybe once - but she has forgotten what that felt like and has taken too much of her time up with apparent self destruction that she is afraid to have the one thing that makes sense at the moment go away (she has become melodramatic, which proves what she first presumed). She knows that if words were to come back this way, neither in the breeze or on backs of white coated waves, they wouldn't be spelled the same. When the writer falls, she hurts her knees.

Shoes and Eyes

2010-05-12T02:14:00.002+01:00

Back again. I went to go see Joanna Newsom tonight at The Festival Hall. I went alone but found Kolli and Caitlin and they were sitting in the same row as me which was nice. I really wanted ice-cream, but there wasn't any, then I wanted crisps but the que was too long. Before she started I wished I had put different shoes on; I nearly fell down the stairs twice (I'm not sure that the Tequila has left my system completely from my blind drunk Sunday night) so maybe it wasn't the shoes at all - just me. Well she was beautiful and her songs were pretty and all those things. Now I'm here dreaming of other things and nothing much at all. I wish my head would stop being fuzzy and that I could fall to sleep and wake up at regular hours. I wish I could get round to doing all the things I want to do, instead of sitting and thinking about nothing untill it gets dark and I have to sleep again. Tomorrow I will get up at a regular hour and go and write in Costa Coffee - even if I don't want to really and I actually do want to stare at my wall all day... I will get up and go and sit in the coffee shop, I will write something lovely and be happy that I decided to do this. I think I have lost my mind, but it's ok, I might find it in my sleep. I have make up in my eyes ...

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds #4

2010-04-28T23:43:00.002+01:00

FLUTTERBYDAISY FAIRYTALE FINDS #4

Now in my Ebay shop ...

(Starting @ £5)

... Which you can find Via my website:

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Flutterbydaisy 'Fairytale Finds' Shop Additions #2 & #3

2010-04-22T20:35:00.006+01:00

Find these actions in my 'Flutterbyaisy Finds' ebay shop

Via : http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

xxx

P.S today there are only 5 FD Fashion Show dresses left in my Fluterbydaisy Handmade Etsy shop... find this link on my website too...

<3

FINALLY!! Flutterbydaisy Fashion show 2010 dresses are now in my shop!

2010-04-22T04:25:00.007+01:00

Yes, I'm still awake, but had to tell you that I have put the dresses from my Fashion Show in my online shop :) I'm still feeling a little under the weather so I roped my stunt double Luna to come and pretend to be me in the photos... I think we pulled it off ;) http://www.flutterbydaisy.etsy.com/

** I will be adding one new special Flutter Frock each week **

Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds to come ......

* Goodnight *

Unbearable

2010-04-06T01:56:00.003+01:00

On the train to Hull... I feel better, better leaving London, but not about going to Hull, just going. I write in my notebook 'Train, faster, untill it explodes, just to know what it feels like, but I don't want to feel the pain: How selfish' I'm reading it back now and I have no idea what I meant really. But anyway, I started (and couldn't put down) 'The Unbearable Lightness of Being' by Milan Kundera. It's been on my shelf now for months but I had other books to read first. I'm happy I chose this one to bring here with me. It has in fact managed to steal the position from Murakami, 'Kafka on the Shore' of best book of all time (to be continued...) within the first 127 pages. I am more than a little impressed. I usually watch trees and think about crazy things that would never happen and make fantasies about people I shouldn't when I'm on trains. I'll catch up on that when I get back as I'm sure I'll finish this book while I'm here. As soon as I got here (out of There) I became inspired again. I wanted to be near a sewing machine and make a dress in peacock colours then write more and more chapters of my book after re-writing the ones I already have and keep writing till I've finished. I know though that untill I get a place of my own (wherever that may be) I'm not going to feel like this again any time soon, and this is not a reflection on the people I live with as they are lovely, but more about me and my daft and stupid head. I don't know where I'm supposed to be at the moment and I'm not sure if the book is helping or not. I do know, though, that being on trains is fun. I wish I could just be on a train, an empty one like this one but that just goes all over the countryside all the time and never stops (and doesn't explode either as my subconcious wanted it to at the begining of my journey)
I'm happy to see my Mum and everyone. My Nana told me new stories, while Grandad clicked his teeth... we talked about the universe and drank coffee. Then there was a pile of stuff from my past for me to sort... I found my Mums old make up that I used to play with when I was little. The bag opened and powder fell across the floor; the smell of my childhood. I wish the train would also go back in time.

Near the woods

2010-04-03T20:20:00.000+01:00

Today I went to visit Nuala and her lovely little moggy ... I had to hide my ribbons, but she liked me really untill the very end, we think she was playing anyway. We moved the pretty screen and took some photos semi-inspired by Opelia. We were going to walk through the woods after but the mud was everywhere, we did walk past Spike Milligans house though. I love it over there - the scenery is yum. I didn't feel like I was in London, which was nice. London is suffocating recently. Our day was a dream... made sureal by the lushness of Nualas awesome home baked chocolate cake... I could eat it for breakfast everyday. When I got home a fever happened and I got lost. Bad things were happening but I put them all there myself. George made me Lemon and Ginger tea which made me feel better then I watched One Hour Photo which made me feel less crazy. I dreamed that night of secrets that I can't tell you. Maybe one of you was there...

Am back ...

2010-03-30T22:30:00.004+01:00

... from hibernation :) (new dresses will be in both my shops in the nest week)
Sooooo .... I've had so many conversations recently about this whole bisexual business... it's interesting, as I always thought I was a lesbian and now I feel as though I'm 'coming out' again. Most Lesbians I've met are not ok with this and I'm intruiged to find out why - It simply blows my mind! an-y-waaaaaay..........
I'm also wondering why it is that other people like to stick to their own stereotypes? it's odd, and makes me wonder if I do it too ... I hope not, am I a part of that group? I fall for people sometimes too hard and want to run away with them which in turn makes them want to run away from me, and then other times I switch off when some of them make me feel lost, then write about it after drinking too much wine - am I just acting out the stereotype of 'the writer'?? 'the creative individual'?? 'the fool for love'?? 'the fool'?????
Writers and Musicians shouldn't get on, so why do I end up falling for them all the time? sometimes by accident - I could meet them and not even know that they are one of them for weeks and then all of a sudden they pull out a guitar or harmonica or banjo or a cello from their back pocket ...
I also don't like it when people don't text me back - but that's another story. I'm going to write a chapter of my book now.... that will make me feel better.

Somewhere across the world is someone writing: 'Sailors and Ballerinas shouldn't get on... but I like the sea too much.'
Here is my picture dedicated to The Sea.

Sniff

2010-03-16T16:07:00.002Z

So today was supposed to be my 'day of doing' but I seem to have brought back Le French Flu from Paris. So today has turned into my 'day of not doing much apart from sniffing, coughing and watching Planet Earth' ... I'm goi.ng to write some and then try to sleep it off. I will try to get my new Flutterbydaisy Finds and the Dresses from my Fashion Show online in a couple of days- when the sniffling and spluttering has had enough of me.... uf.

Marionette Obsessive in the Making...

2010-03-11T21:46:00.003Z

I'm becoming obsessed with Vintage puppets and marionettes... I found a book in Oxfam, Camden, it's about Papier Mache and I'm well away: more hobbies, more new Flutterbydaisy things to sell in my little handmade shop. I'm going to start making them when I get back from Paris on Monday, give them pretty names, dresses and maybe houses to live in ... I will be seeking out more Fairytale Finds when I'm away too - I have a bag of them already at home waiting for their photo op and to be put online ... I'll do that when I get back too. Tuesday will be 'the day of doing' in my world :) all my shops will be full and what not, then I can start writing my book. More time: I have deleted my facebook, and am 'away' on MySpace so I have more time to be here and on my website ... which is the way it should be really. I like being here. I love that Spring is here too - the TV makes me laugh: 'Lambing Live', don't miss it folks... :)

Sooooo Paris in the morning ... can't wait! I'm taking my video camera and will be making a 'Rules of Attraction' inspired video diary... but with walking instead of sex, museums instead of prostitutes and hot chocolate instead of drugs. YEAH!
I found this cute marionette online here: http://www.jpgmag.com/photos/652999 ...
I'm going to go get in the Paris mood now with cute French film: 'Love me if you Dare' au revoir!

Covent Garden, Planet Earth

2010-03-10T02:12:00.007Z

If I want to get up earlier I need to sleep earlier, so why am I here now? tomorrow I'm going to go on a mini search for Flutterbydaisy Finds ... as my other only have one day left in the auction. I should really put my Fashion show pieces in my etsy shop too - maybe I will also do that tomorrow, but right now I'm awake and writing and watching Planet Earth which makes me laugh and cry out loud all at the same time. I would love to meet David Attenborough. I bought it today from Fopp me and Stephanie went there for some much needed retail therapy and after my disapointing search for it at The Natural History Museum (because me and Maria became far too engrosed in the carrot cake the day before this) We also visited the two little mystery shops that have crystals and what not inside; Stephanie looks at home in these shops I think she should have one of her own. We ask for Kunzite but there isn't any ... there never is any anywhere, and it is the one I really would love to add to my collection (I eyed it for a good while in my favourite room at the museum, before we went to stare at the big chunk of tree) So then we have a rest in Cafe Boheme with wine and look at stuff and talk about everything. Theer's so much to look forward to; today I am feeling better. Later I couldn't resist the offer to go to see Alice in Wonderland with Maria ... it was awesome (Anne Hathaway is yum and we think should have married Alice at the end - that's the only thing we would change) ;) The White Queen really reminds me of someone. Then home and a happy Disney style ending for me too: I found a pretty chunk of Kunzite on Ebay. The End.

Awake and lit up, but gone

2010-03-07T04:00:00.004Z

And she forgets it all, or rather can't think of any of it; it's all blank as she goes away..... again. She forgets her name and the faces of all those people, any people: him and her. The lights make her feel better as she understands how now those lights are the only things that are there, here, the only thing she can feel. If she wanted to - she could switch them off.

***

Today, I bought some cheese from Maria because all I wanted to do when I woke up was eat a cheese sandwich (more so than all the other times in the day when I want a cheese sandwich) Looking at each other was like looking into a mirror; we are both so exhausted, her with lack of sleep and me with I'm not sure what because right now it's hard for me to think... and if I knew you wouldn't need to know about it. Later because the film was sold out me and Tom went to The Diner and had yum burgers, with him I felt like me again. Then I went to The Big Red to have a drink with Julia and Shelley. I love them all a lot, and don't know what I'd do right now without any of them .... *

And so I find myself sitting here again at, whatever time it is... with strange TV on in the background. I'm going to write for a while and then I have to sleep : tomorrow I have a date with some dinosaurs.

Finished ... and breathe...

2010-03-04T03:58:00.005Z

Sooooo.... I have finished all the sewing for the show tomorrow - or later on, as again I find myself up and awake at 4:00am. I really looking forward to the show and hope to see you all there! I'm going to be in the corner with a large glass of wine ... maybe in an easy chair, I wish - I will probably actually be running around trying to fix something that may or may not go wrong, but whatever happens I'll be dancing at some point ... and drinking, and eating the cheese sandwiches that Maria has just made for the Flutterbydaisy staff lol :)

So when I checked my email to see how many tickes have been sold I had been sent this illustration and I

adore it :) it's by Clare Heart...

Now, I have to sleep as I have to wake up in a couple of hours to go buy lots of black fabric to make a curtain at the venue, then I have a man with a catwalk waiting for me at the Dome ... then we have to make everything pretty. Ok, so I'm going to be the one at the back in the corner having a little nap.... *goodnight*

Flutterbydaisy 'Fairytale Finds' Shop Additions #1

2010-03-01T16:14:00.004Z

On auction now ... in my Fairytale Finds' shop you can find on my website:

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

It Speaks T Shirts are now on sale...

2010-02-28T23:59:00.000Z

* It Speaks T Shirts *

Forest Fairy Artwork by Luna Viola

Now available to buy online :) you can find them in my 'Flutterbydaisy Fairytale Finds' Shop via my website... www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk

Flutterbydaisy 'Handmade Shop' Additions #1

2010-02-27T23:59:00.001Z

Ladybird, Magpie, Sparrow

http://www.flutterbydaisy.co.uk/

should be sleeping

2010-02-27T04:00:00.004Z

Haha I've just realised that the ballerina doll I posted below is sitting like me in the pic of at the top of this blog... aaaannyyyywaaaayyy ... was on ebay again - and not only managed to find my dream shoes but also this little cameo which reminds me of books my Nana used to read to me. I should buy it to wear at my show, which is getting closer and now the nerves are kicking in- mainly about drawing the raffle (as I get the best talk related stage fright in the world) So.... on my TV now is some woman trying to make me make a face cream from avocado - eh... and shes making juuice- but it's soooo expensive to make this green juice stuff, firstly they make you get organic stuff and then there's the whole cleaning the juicer business afterwards AND she's wearing a green top --- sorry, tangent. Ok I'm tired, and again with the rice crispies obsession - I'm going to go raid my cupboard (I know where they are, it's just more exciting to raid kitchen cupboards for midnight/4am feast... come to my fashion show - I'll bring rice crispies and we can get drunk on them.

Bring on the fairy dolls and figure skating...

2010-02-23T19:26:00.004Z

Was browsing through ebay when I should have been sewing and came across a far too pretty fairy ballerina doll, so pretty I kind of wanted to marry her. I wish I could afford one, but apparently not :'(

(cdlitestudio.com) I was looking for dolls because I'm trying to collect weird things to put in my future living/sewing room... It should have old red lamps, green velvet curtains, (more) old bashed up chairs, cracked dolls and paintings of folk with that look on their face. Creepville room of Yum and lush. I came by another listing that said something like 'used doll with nice hands' which I thought was a bit odd, well more than odd really; it creeped me out more than the imaginary room of my future. In other news my TV is all working again... I'm over the TV-non-watching and I'm back on the flicker box band wagon, maily because I really want to watch the figure skating, but when ever I've put it on upto now it's been somekind of 'pushing thing across ice game' that I am not very fond of at all. I'm off to read the new Lula magazine now and then be a good girly and make a dress. If anyone finds and creepy bits and bobs auction anywhere send me the link :)